my body start to balloon around 2021, before that I was overweight but not really big. my body weight is around the same since in junior high school to 2020. not really much change around 70kg~80kg
but starting around 2021, my body goes from 80kg shoot up to 99kg in the end of 2021, new year 2022. maybe it touch 0.1 ton for few day
this body weight then goes constant, but sometime it goes down in early 2024, first half 2024 I touch 87kg but then because of sedentary lifestyle (I work mostly in front of computer all day) and not much exercise, and bad sleeping habits, fuel my food addiction, I just eat whatever I want that money can buy.
sometime I just feel tired of making choices, of what food should I eat , because my appetite already jaded with delicious food I buy.
so my weight right now, 16 september 2025 is back to 97kg. I am really hate this, the body really feel heavy, breathing feel more hard. my oversize shirt now start to show my belly more clearly
Overall I just feel awful with this body, I want to back to normal weight, or maybe I never really had normal weight before, the last I feel normal weight probably in early junior high school.
don’t you think it is so shameful to live a life not even feel how it was to having lean body. that probably about 10 years living in overweight, still okay. then in the last 5 years, I live in obese territory.
I don’t know what long term effect of this, but don’t talk about future, talk about now, having obese body is hard, even for me, 26 years old male. this age is supposedly a peak in human male physically but now I am feel usually tired and out of breath.
I just can’t take it no more, my body can’t take it no more. it is now or never.
I must take radical measure to cut my own weight and back to normal body weight or else, I will end up as sick man fill with chronic disease in my 30s
I don’t want that, what money & power mean to sick man, it mean nothing, sick man only want, one thing, and that is healthy body. Power and money can only be enjoy fully if our body is healthy.
my body becoming obese is direct correlation with my snacking habits. because I love to snack, I will buy snack on convenience store, whatever my appetite want.
In top of that I also love to eat and watching youtube, this combo perfected my bad cycle. eating and watching then becoming habits that very hard to stop, it is feel bad to not eating while watching and Vice versa, it is so bad to not watching while eating.
How hard I try to fast, to go to gym. in the end, any excess calorie I burn in fast or gym will be dwarf by calorie ingested by watch & eating addiction.
Maybe this combo addiction I must conquer, to stop snacking & watching while eating. no snacking again, just eating at home, whatever my mom cook, maybe my mom cook something else, it is okay. no problem to eat that, only stop eating snack I buy my self on convenience store. I must stop that
My eating and watching habits will be stop, it is really not good to doing multiple thing simultaneously, everyday. i mean if you go to movies theater/cinema and eating food there, it is okay, it is how you enjoy your life, but if u do it everyday in your own home, that is bad habit
maybe only that I can write now
16 sept 2025, my weight currently at 97kg.
I will update again a month from now, how much weight I lose