it almost 1 year ago when I make a post about my plan to losing weight. it is september 2025, and now it is agust 2026. so what is my progress?
there is no progress at all, all that is left is more heavier body and smaller pool of clothes I can fit in without showing my big belly.
I try it but always fail in the end, my duration is about a week or two before i completely back and screw my diet again.
I think stress is one of the reason and boredom eating is also a thing for me. it is probably overstimulation from consuming internet entertaiment has something to do with this.
I mean I try to eat on portion, but I always fall back to default setting to devoures any food I can get. I think I just feeling a dopamine exhaustion, or I like to said dopamine resistance with more dopamine causing things that easy to get like consuming very palatable food.
so that mean the first thing I must fix is my phone and internet addiction. I really have to cut it or there is no chance for me to fix my diet. also as far as I can asses myself, almost every bad habits or problem in my life cause by this thing called internet entertaiment or internet overstimulation
Dopamine Resistance
I like to borrow methapor from diabetes called insulin resistance, insulin resistance is
Insulin resistance occurs when cells in your muscles, fat, and liver do not respond well to insulin and cannot easily absorb glucose from your blood. Your pancreas makes more insulin to help glucose enter your cells. Over time, this can lead to prediabetes or type 2 diabetes
even though there is no medical thing for dopamine resistance, i just like to make methapor out of it because it make it more clear for me.
like eating high carbs and high sugars food for long period of time cause insulin resistance, high overstimulation from low effort high reward activity like internet entertaiment for long time cause dopamine resistance.
dopamine resistance is the resistance of our receptor to dopamine because of prolong high dopamine level in our life, so to get same effect we have to pump more and more dopamine to our neuron. to do that we have to make our overstimulation higher and higher.
other word for this is “anhedonia”
Anhedonia is the inability to feel pleasure from activities that a person normally enjoys
so to wreck our dopamine with over stimulation low effort activity is really the way to make our life less happy, less drive, less zest for life.
🎯🏆 Working for long term goal? does not feel good, too much effort, no immediet reward.
🏋️ Have good healthy body, lets do gym? noo, too effortfull, pushing body in gym does feels painfull
🥩 🥦 Eating healthy food? nah that is too bland, does not taste great. lets eat ultra proceed food, high in sugar and other bad ingredient, forget about good body, at least now, our tongue feel soo good.
Okay back to main topic of this article, how does high dopamine stimulation drive me to eat more, eating more unhealthy food.
first I do over stimulation for my brain like opening social media, watching youtube, opening reddit. then after that all, my brain starting to heating up, too much overwork. then i will feel hungry, then I will always choose food that is very palatable, why? because it feels good, if i eat bland food, it does not feel good.
okay I eat very palatable food like instant noodle, high carbs spicy food, and sweet food. that is very palatable. when I eat normal portion of it, I will feel not enough, it is not yet fill my hunger, the hunger still there and I need more, because of it I will buy 2 portion of it, or buying other food. so in one meal I will eat double the portion at least. then don’t forget about the snack, eating food without snack feel something does not complete, the snack is required for eating, the snack usually very sweet food like chocolate, ice cream, nuttela or crunchy food like doritos
because I know, that i will eat the food while watching youtube, I am unconciously will try to buy extra snack or portion of that food before i eating it. so when I eat, that will be in my table, mostly working table. with phone or tablet open playing youtube video and I am watching it while eating my food. trying to subtitute bad feeling because of overstimulation brain neuron with very rewarding food.
I try for so long, to stop my overstimulation, my dopamine resistance, but I always fail in the end, I don’t know why, I just feel it my gut, without me fixing this overstimulation of my brain, I will never be succesfull in my diet, I will fail in the end, I will give up before I get lean healthy body.
That is I don’t really have high expectation for current attempt because I already fail for so many and for soo long, so keepoing low expectation for current attemp probably good approach.
Now I start keto diet, hope i can keep it. I already try it since a month ago, but it seem I fail at night while I feel hunger, or have bad feeling. I will order shopee or grab food. first buying normal food like lalapan nasi or nasi ayam. but then when I order it, I rarely order one portion, it always 2 at least. then after it arrive and i eating it.
it will blow everything up, i will feel more hunger and then screw it all, and buy junk food mcdonald or go out buying junk food in indomaret.
what Keto food look like, this is my refrigerator, I try to eat this and hope I don’t eat junk food when I feel bad
On 17 Agust 2026. Independence day for my country. My weight was 100kg. that is 2 days ago. now it is about 99.xxkg. I hope in the end of this years on 31 december 2026. I hope I can touch 85kg of body weight with some muscle.
So in early april 2027. on my 28 years birthday. I hope I can achive 75kg of body weight with muscle. 75kg is probably normal weight for me. that modest and I think very achiveable goal if all thing work like the plan.